There is nothing you can do or not do for that matter to make God move closer or further away from you. God is always near. There is only that which you do that either connects or disconnects you from God. Sorta like you sitting in the room and you turn off the light. God is still there. But you won’t see God until you turn on the light. That light is love.
Get to the point where you can sing:
“I can see clearly now…”